awake
This morning makes two weeks of my alarm going off at 7:15am, apparently. It also marks two weeks of actually trying to get out of bed when my alarm goes off, with varying degrees of success. It’s been a fun experiment so far, though I do feel a little bad that this has so far been more effective than any of my previous attempts to get into waking up earlier in the last few years.
Today I actually woke up before my alarm, which is a first, and I feel like I’ve slept properly for the first time in a while. I feel awake for the first time in a while. I got back into Pokemon Go recently, and I keep meaning to go out walking in the morning to catch some guys and take over the gyms down the street, but this was the first morning I managed to do that before 9:00 under my own power. It’s still a little too warm in the mornings for my taste, but I’ll take it while it’s still around - getting up early is easier now than it will be once winter arrives in a few months.
I’m curious to see how this progresses - I tend to get really tired about mid-afternoon, regardless of whether I wake up at 8am or 11. Normally this is when I would resort to energy drinks, but I realised earlier that as far as I can tell I’ve just been… less energetic and happy as a person since I started drinking those regularly? So I am going to do my best to not do that today, and we’ll keep updating as the day goes.
12:08pm
Even after getting up early, I’m still getting to work after midday.
Still, it’s been a busy morning. I went out for my walk! I caught up on all of my assorted para-correspondences; a post from a friend that worried me because I don’t know quite what it means for them, a message from another that worried me because I do know what it meant. I sat down to have another go at styling this blog, though I realised quickly that Bear Blog doesn’t quite support all of the features I would like to make use of, and separately that the colour scheme I was considering would overlap far too closely with a friend’s blog. So we’re back to figuring that out.
I’d like to get into leaving the house earlier in the mornings; our studio is coming to the end of our current project, and it feels like I am sabotaging it - or my own contributions to it, at least - by missing hours of “working time” each day. Of course, it’s not quite that simple, and we tend to work late to make up the difference, but the other things I am doing to try to improve my productivity likely won’t bear fruit for a while yet so I can’t help thinking.
1:36pm
I am so sleepy. It’s entirely unreasonable. I wasn’t tired at all until I got to my work desk and sat down, and when I get up to walk around the office a little I find myself recovered again. Is it just our room? Is there something about the lights, or the temperature, or something else? I finished lunch an hour ago, is that it?
Do I need to get a CO2 sensor?
6:50pm
I left the office a few minutes ago, and all of a sudden I am indeed awake again. I don’t understand. This is so silly.
The form I am apparently writing today’s post in has reminded me of some notes on my phone that could be fun to transcribe some time. They wouldn’t make good blog posts, but they might be amusing for visitors, and they count as part of the canon of text files that make up my attempts to inscribe my experience upon the world.
8:58pm
Back at home and starting to feel tired again; normally tired, though, not like the struggling to focus my eyes that I got earlier. The kind I can just banish because I’m still writing, and after this I will continue banishing because I need to eat dinner and do website design.
I wonder how tomorrow will go. It would be nice to go on making more out of my mornings, at the very least. I am not quite hubristic enough to claim that this is the start of some pattern, though, the turning point in some new grand chapter of my life - I’ve made my big statements about that one already and had my resolution bounce back in my face, so I might just see how it goes for now. See you in about 10 hours :)